#340

I'm aware that I'm pushing everyone who's tryna sweep the burden away from my shoulders for me. I'm not blind, I'm not one without feelings. I can see that.

But I'm still pushing them away. I'm feeling so apologetic, but I don't want any help, because I don't need more people to judge me.

Please, whoever is controlling my life right now. I'm willing to go on my knees. I don't want history to repeat itself. I don't need it. I need a stronger determination to live on.

Because I can't find any reasons for me to stay alive.
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